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MY GREATEST FEAR



I have existed over greater than two decades and few seasons.  I have learned,  maybe experienced would suit it better. 
Even unlike the forebearers of the clan I hail from. 

I have fears.  Some may be funny and some am in a pensive mood about.  But all make me who i am. They have succeeded in accumulating over time. 

Parents told me over my teenage years that I feared the fiery red lantern. I even feared the grimacing boys who threw stones around.  I feared my parents not buying my cherished toys.  The small flying plane I loved. 

I have had fears over time.  I really fear I may not be able to realize all I have set out to do.  I fear I would let my acquaintances down. 

I have also over time had a persistent fear of dogs.  Those four-legged hairy monsters.  I have never made a delicacy our of you so don't eye my legs.  They are even too tiny for you to gnaw at. And they are not tasty. 

I have a fear of snakes.  Those slimy creatures.  I have a fear my country is already letting me down.  I would need an avenue to showcase my dreams.  Bit don't worry I would create one myself. 

I even have the fear that I won't be able to love the jewel of olufemi's eyes the way I should.  She has toiled and I really need to achieve my dreams and repay her in multiple folds.  

Now to the Hallowed red and white chambers I reside in temporarily,  I fear repetitive times in these places.  I fear for my power of critical thinking.  I fear the tie I have formed would melt from pressures from these places. 

From my cherished one, I fear being left on blue ticks.  I fear the reply with that annoying letter K.  It would be better if you won't talk to me.  I fear being left in front of that enormous camp, just because I miss you. 

I have the fear that I won't be able to fully tap into the opportunities the ivory tower has to offer.  My time in it is fast elapsing. 
I fear for my friends. I fear over time I may become unknown to them. 
My fears continuously richochet off my mind and trust me I would keep you posted when they come back. 

Ayomaria, 



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